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May 15, 2012

The Fight

By Love, Art & Fear

I walk through a field of dandelions knowing that soon the truck filled with the latest Monsanto chem will pass by.  What would happen if we just let things be?  Grass was originally a sign of English opulence but what does that mean these days to the guy who just worked 12 hours to come home to a fucking lawnmower?

dandelions can be made into tea or chewed as a cleanse for our livers.  Perhaps, nature is telling us something.  Perhaps not.  dandelions can be made into wine (which is probably gross.  I’ll stick with Shiraz thanks).  For the record, I care not what happens to the dandelions but, I do wonder what would happen if we stopped fighting nature.

First, the dandelions would have their way.  Next some other plant we call a weed would say hello, but inevitably we would live among the trees.

There is an evolutionary train of thought that claims that the intelligence of grass manipulated Man emotionally in order to beat out trees for spacial competition.  I doubt it.  I personally think that people in general just don’t think enough to make new thoughts.  Somewhere in time, a new thought occurred and then the status quo raped it. 

My point is this;  you could spend a million dollars on the perfect lawn, only to have your neighbor fuck it up by not caring about dandelions. 

Who is right?  Who cares?

“I have better things to think about!!!”  says the guy who just spent 15 minutes of his life posting about how people struggle against nature.

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November 29, 2011

Blocked

By Love, Art & Fear

Again I find myself sitting here staring down the barrel of a blank page with no inspiration to write anything.  ”It has to be real and from the heart” my brain echos to itself.  I’ve looked up “blog topics” on the internet and have two articles in the draft folder that I currently think are shit.  What to do?

I’m taking my own advice.  Just start writing.  Don’t wait for some magic moment.  GO!!!!  So here I am writing about not being able to write.  I have always believed these posts to be some of the best because they are honest.  Not that my other posts are not but, there is something very honest about admitting that I get stuck and stumble.  We’re human after all.  What a strange sentiment; “I’m only human and I make mistakes”.  It’s like we have this built-in mechanism that establishes our rank to a God of perfection.  I wonder if animals every say “I’m only animal and I fling feces at others”?  What an interesting experience we humans are in.  Between Gods and Beasts.

What was I saying?  Oh yeah… I don’t have anything to write about.

Maybe it’s the pressure of the final stretch.  I’m just shy of 300 posts for my post a day for a year challenge and I’m starting to think in terms of quantity.  That’s a bad move because it shuts down my creativity and establishes my mental accountant.  Bean counters shouldn’t run the creative department.  I admit that I thought “oh, only 69 posts left til 365.  If I do 7 posts a day for the next 10 days and program them, I will be finished.”  How lame is that?  Definitely NOT inspiring.  That’s a production line.

I do believe that when it comes to creativity we have the ability to shut ourselves down.  ”I’m not a creative person”, “I can’t write”, “I’m going to get it over with by treating my creativity like a production line” are phrases that I have heard and the last one is what I thought.  After reading this, I’m reminded that this is us being creative.  By saying “I’m not creative” we are using our creativity to create and enforce that circumstance in our life.

I entitled this post “blocked” because that is how I felt today.  Then I remembered my rule…

Just write.  Just paint.  Just start.

… because the walls are not real.  They are perceived.

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November 15, 2011

Energy Matters

By Love, Art & Fear

Energy can not be created or destroyed.  This means that everything that ever was and ever will be…

Is.

I’ve been contemplating this for years and every time I pick it up, my mind stretches as my brain tightens.  Some of us humans walk about believing that we are accidental bodies in a random universe.  Our mind is on matter so to speak hence the term “what’s the matter”?  Another side to this is that each of us are the center of an infinite universe.  I’m ok with that ideology but it is not what I see.  That seems like a narrow, ego-centric way of seeing the world. 

An infinite universe would imply that the center is everywhere and the circumference is nowhere but I’m not sure that means I’m in charge or that I need to figure it all out.  I also let go of these matters because matter is just dense energy and to me, that means trapped energy.    

It makes more sense that everything ‘appears’ or ’tends’ to be.  This is more accurate than “this is what I feel or think” or “that’s just the way it is”.  This phenomena we call ’life’ is an arising.  There are many differing groups (scientific and religious) that have become so dogmatic that there is no talking to them whatsoever.  I use science and religion loosely because these groups are political… they have an agenda.

I’ll clarify.  Science is our birthright tendency to explore this phenomena we called the universe.  We must be open and curious in order to expand our awareness.  If the entire “UNI VERSE” is one phenomena arising as a tendency and we are that arising then it follow suit that the purpose of religion is to re-legion; rejoin or re-yolk us to the original form and function.  Otherwise, it’s just more bullshit ideology that perpetuates our illusion of separateness.   

It is easier to believe than it is to understand, and whatever put us here gave us all the tools to understand. 

Much like a loving observing parent allows us to be ourselves.  We are given all of the tools.  Some of us attempt to control reality through knowledge and power.  Some of us argue about whose dad is stronger and better.  Some of us smile with the subtle knowing that we are loved and are love. 

Regardless, everything is ONE thing.  I cannot understand for the life of me how we became so easily fooled into believing that we must fight for survival, rebel and do it on our own.  It is like an illness or worse… species adolescence.

Whatever your ideas or beliefs are, I suggest that you take the day or a moment to contemplate how absolutely fucking incredible it is that any of this even exists in the first place. 

I end with the beginning:

Energy can not be created or destroyed.  This means that everything that ever was and ever will be…

Is.

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October 30, 2011

eVolution

By Love, Art & Fear

I’ve said this before.  I feel that most people referencing evolution speak of a past event rather than an ongoing process.  We could be like the caterpillar that consumes and consumes before it goes into the cocoon transformation.  It is hard to say where we are at when we’re in the thick of it. 

I don’t think in terms of popular evolution however.  I am firm that we fell from our place of origin and this experience has been a journey of returning home.  This by no means excludes the spontaneity of life and the ability to observe, adapt and evolve.  Life is growth. 

I have watched documentaries about octopi observing, adapting and evolving into new patterns and behaviors.  I have read a lot about the order and chaos of quantum physics.  I am yet to see an amphibian suddenly become a primate and a monkey burst spontaneously into a human being. 

Our DNA is only 2% different than that of a cow but that doesn’t mean I was once a cow.  It just means that everything is made of the same stuff.  Big surprise.

Earth could have been an egg floating in the cosmic womb and suddenly fertalized by seed that floats about the universe.  Or perhaps life is an outflowing of quantum wave patterns.  I don’t know but I love the mysterious.

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October 17, 2011

More Social Commentary

By Love, Art & Fear

I can’t stand when bloggers post social commentary.  The internet has given rise to the ‘every ones opinion matters’ movement.  That being said, here are more of my opinions:)

I took this photo at the Occupy Winnipeg event:

These Occupy the world events are born out of frustration and that frustration turns to anger.  I witnessed the anger of many people who stood up to speak.  Some of those people were focused on love and reminding everyone present of the power we all possess within our own hearts.  Most of the people present were embodying victim consciousness and demanding change.  Like teenagers thinking the parents rules are unfair and wanting to move out but having nowhere to go.  It’s frustrating.  I get that.

A friend of mine stood up to remind the crowd that the real movement is about love and that we cannot solve anger with anger, hate with hate or victim consciousness by demanding that those who we willingly gave our power to give it back.  We will not solve the problem on the same level of its creation.  Fear begets fear.  Love blows fear out of the water.

The moment that my attitude changed about this movement was when the little girl in the photo stood beside me.  I asked her if I could take her picture while the tears welled up in the side of my eyes.  She just smiled and held up her sign.  I realize that it is the parents that brought the children there and that no child would use the word “solidarity” in a speech but the children present reminded me what it is all about…

Love and play.  Creativity.  Truth.  Fairness and balance. 

Afterall, we are just children here.  Most of us are feeling the effects of what happens when we allow bullies to take over the sandbox and hoard all of the toys.  Well, that’s no fucking fun!!!  We all know something is off in this world and needs to change.  We are all seeking love and I suggest that we stop that seeking.  It is the very seeking that keeps us from the experience of love and more importantly we need to seek the source of love.  I can tell you first hand that when you realize (make real) that the source of love dwells within you, what would you seek for? 

Admittedly, my fear in these ‘occupy’ movements is that it is mass psychology and we all know the lessons of mob rule.  The masses or as I like to say, them asses, are awake and they are pissed off.  Angry people like to smash things.  Deep breaths everyone.  Count to 10.  We are in need of clear minded decisions at this point in history.   

Yes, things must change but that is a movement that happens in each individual and it has to come from a place of compassion. 

We are currently living out what happens when we allow others to represent us.  Representatives who we thought had our best interests at heart.  Demanding anything of value from them is useless because all of the value and power is inside each of us from the source of all life everywhere.

Jesus said it perfectly.  Be like children.  Not childish, not spoiled brats demanding stuff but curious, loving, exploratory, playful and creative.

Occupy that.

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October 1, 2011

Spirit Sands

By Love, Art & Fear

The feather of a bird clings to the desert growth, struggling against the winds of oblivion. 

Most people don’t know that there is a desert in the center of Canada.  The Spirit Sands are a continual meditation.  I am reminded of how absurd it is to presuppose that evolution is an end product and not a process created on purpose.  If evolution is the end product… we are doomed.  I believe the correct word for what most people refer to is entropy. 

The desert reminds me that any footprints that I leave behind will be blown away, effortlessly, by the wind.  My ego wishes differently, but I am glad that my ego has about as much hope as the bird the above feather belonged to.   

To some, the cactus is no stranger.  For those of us who spend eight months covered in snow and freezing our asses off, the cactus is an anomaly.

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September 3, 2011

Non-profit

By Love, Art & Fear

When I wrote the articles for my Non-profit corporation I was in the mindset of not for profit.  Subsequently, it didn’t take off because everyone I enlisted had to go back to work the next day.  My federal corporation is dormant.  I keep it around because it reminds me of my ideals. 

In order to create a not for profit corporation, it has to fall into one of four purposes. 

1.  Religious Organization

2.  Community Development

3.  Education

4.  Relief of Poverty

In order to create a for profit corporation, it only has to fall into one purpose.

1.  Generate Profit for shareholders. 

It doesn’t matter if it harms the environment, lays people off, puts mom and pop out of business or exploits kids for cheap labor.  It’s just business and business  is a game. 

I always appreciated the non-profit.  Not as a business model.  As a business model it sucks.  After all it’s “non-profit”.  As a mindset it is how I believe we should be thinking about one another.   

My not for profit corporation is called ‘de-facto’.  It means ‘what actually exists despite what is currently established’.  I realize the irony of establishing a corporation called de-facto but my hope was to use it to point to what actually exists.  What actually exists is life, people and inter-action.  This is what we would be wise to get back to; The business of loving one another.  Crazy, I know.

So here it is:  The non-profit mindset.

It is called ‘love’ and the mission is to love one another.  No easy task, I know.  It involves radical forgiveness, sharing and getting out of our comfort zones.  It is a religious organization because the word ‘religion’ means ‘re’ as in back and ‘legion’ as in to join.  Re-legion:  to go back to our source (which I know is love). 

As a religious organization in love and seeking to serve one another, its purpose obviously involves community development.  I have my ideas for community development and it involves drumming and music.  What are yours?  That is the beauty of what actually exists despite current establishments; you get to use your talents, gifts and capital for community development.

The corporation of Love (body of love) is about educating yourself and then sharing what you learn with others.  Educating one another with our talents, gifts and passion.  The corporation of Love does NOT condone fanaticism in any way, shape or form.  Those behaving in this way are not part of Love Inc.

Last but not least… the relief of poverty.  We live in an abundant world.  There is no shortage.  There is however controlled shortage and we must speak out against this.  Scarcity is a lie.  The relief of poverty will come quite naturally when we truly love one another, develop our community together and educate ourselves then share our discoveries.   

Money has never been the problem in this world.  The only single problem in this world is a mindset.  The good news is that we each get to choose which mindset we want to participate with…

Every moment.

If you want to join this corporation then do it.  It’s invisible and everywhere.

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August 31, 2011

The God Fear…

By Love, Art & Fear

This may sound bizarre to most but that is perfectly fine with me.  Just stick it on the “if I didn’t think he was crazy before” pile.  Life is risk.  Here we go…

What I mean by fear is respect and reverence with insight into what is possible.  I say this with love in hopes that some will at least ponder it. 

Most of us go about our day sitting in chairs, eating at tables and walking on floors, concrete or grass.  It is all an assumption we make founded on an illusion of what we are told or perceive with our sense organs.

In my twenties, I had an experience that at first, I wished I could erase but later came to appreciate.  In this experience I realized that every molecule, atom, proton and electron that comprises what we call “reality” is being held together by a force that science hasn’t really been able to explain.  There are a lot of fancy theories out there though.

I felt the presence of this force and knew without a doubt that this was the same creative force that created me, you and everything that we see and don’t see.  The dust, the air and neutrinos come from this presence.  I was in awe. 

Next I experienced what would happen if that creative presence simply let go.  Imagine every atom undoing itself instantly while we are still conscious.  The hard floor that I take for granted every day is actually energy condensed to a slow vibration, held together electromagnetically.  It isn’t real, yet I can jump up and down on it. 

This experience was awe-inspiring yet terrifying at the same time.  From this point, I didn’t become afraid and hide away.  After all, where would I hide besides inside of something made out of the material held together by this infinite presence?  There is literally nowhere to go.

So here is my next thought:  If this force is love and we are in a perpetual state of grace, what is there to fear?  Really?  From that point, I no longer feared what any human, government, height or insect could do to me.  I respected what that creative force could do.  I understood this force to be love.  It is hard to present scientific findings concluding that the universe is held together by grace and love however.  That just sounds ridiculous I know, but I feel it’s true.  Why wouldn’t I invest the rest of my life getting to know this presence better?  Why would I choose to fear anything other than the one who could collapse the entire field? 

God is not inert.  God is a verb. 

Some people may get hung up on words.  If you were paying attention in some of my previous posts you would understand that a) words are symbols we use to point to phenomena and b) I really don’t give a shit what people think.  Our individual beliefs will get their ass kicked by truth.

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April 25, 2011

Growing pains

By Love, Art & Fear

“Ignorance is bliss, until they take your bliss away”.  – Josh Homme

We can accept our fate or choose our destiny. 

Something changed in my brain today for the better.  The oblivious became the obvious I suppose.  For years my unconscious guiding principle had been:  Observe.  Resist.  Force.  I had the awareness part down but had been lacking in right action due to a desperate attempt to save a world that does not desire to be saved.

My newest principle in life is simple:  Observe.  Adapt.  Evolve.

I know that Einstein’s definition of insanity is to do the same thing over and over again while expecting a different result yet this is exactly what I had been doing… albeit unconscious, but that’s hardly an excuse. 

I call this ’default thinking’.  

Default thinking is not really thinking.  It is auto-pilot.  While this may seem to keep us safe for now, it is actually detrimental to our long-term well-being.  The reason for this is simple:  Life is not a passive event.  It is an active participation… a work in progress so to speak.  If we don’t decide for our self then someone decides for us.  Just like a muscle that isn’t used will atrophy, so is our ability to transform circumstances. 

I would ask myself; why does it seem that most people are in a race to mediocrity?  I no longer believe that they are.  I just observe that most people, despite the books they read, religion they preach or politics they practice are highly skilled at keeping in line with the status quo.  The status quo is safe and predictable but is it joyful?  This is not necessarily a bad thing.  It’s just what’s up on planet Earth. 

How might your perspective change if you found, for a fact, that the natural state of a human being is radiant joy? 

I re-iterate that we can either accept our fate or choose our destiny.  For years I was caught up in my hippie ‘go with flow’ attitude and wondered why all my dreams/goals didn’t just magically fall into place.  I know why now and it’s almost embarrasing how obvious it is.  I will continue to be kind, loving, fun, funny etc. as those are my values however my actions will change.  Life is fucking great.

OBSERVE.  ADAPT.  EVOLVE.

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March 2, 2011

Patience in evolution

By Love, Art & Fear

Fifteen years ago I would fire up the old computer with excitement.  I remember clicking on the Netscape icon in order to access the “world-wide web”.  After about thirty seconds, the sound of a phone dialing would ring out of the computer followed by about sixty-three minutes of “beeeeeeeeeee boooooooo schkwaaaaaaaaaaaaa firrrrrrrrrrrl ztttt ztttt beeeeeeee”… and then lo and behold, I’m finally opening my one email. 

This was an amazing time.  What a revolution!!! 

Now, as I sit at my Mac Powerbook and click on Firefox, I’m good to go at the speed of light… relatively speaking.  I believe that all of this instant gratification is actually diminishing our patience.  For example; I click on a web-site and it’s taking approximately eight seconds to load.  I sigh, roll my eyes and shout “awwwww, for fuck sakes, what’s wrong with this stupid world?  I don’t have time for this shit!”  and then I click off that site to go to another.  What’s up with that?

So in order to remedy this, I have resolved to breath deeply as I sit at the computer and take the time to appreciate where we’ve come in such a short period of history. 

The amount of information that we now have access to is staggering.  For thousands of years we trudged along making incremental progress and then from 1900 to 1950 we doubled that progress.  Every ten years since, the amount of information continues to expand at an exponential rate.  I cannot wait to see what will happen in the next fifty years.  Life is amazing. 

So that is part of what I contemplate while waiting for slow web-sites to load or if my computer has to take a moment to process its emotions.  That, and how “googling” myself meant something totally different when I was twelve.

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