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The best way to ensure that I will do or attempt to do something is to tell me not to…
“They” call it oppositional defiance disorder, but who are they? Why do they get to call the shots? I mean, if you put up things to climb on, kids that love climbing on things like monkeys will do so regardless of your attempts to protect yourself from an insurance perspective. Why can’t I climb or hang on the goals? I might fall? Or is it because some kid climbed on them, as kids do, and fell, breaking his arm and then some over-protective idiot parent took time out of their busy schedule of watching soap operas to contact the city forcing them to put up a sign.
I never had this kind of ridiculous fear surrounding me when I was a kid. Climbing on things was expected. Remember the kid that once was you? Next time you see something climbable….
Climb it.
If you fall, get up and climb something else.
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Love is our Source.
I know our source to be infinite. We can draw from it over and over and over and over again and our source remains infinite. Good news for us. This is what I know as grace. It is as an infinite bank account that we freely give and receive from.
What this means is both simple and complex; Love is the source of both joy and pain. Joy, as in we are free to be, love, dance, work, make love, sing, smile, do nothing, do something or just simply enjoy all or any of it. Pain, as in fear; our attachment to any of it. Fear is a signal to act; whether perceived or real. Pain is also a signal.
Fear is not a source. Fear is like the shadow of light blocked by an attachment. If I stand with my back to the Sun I see a shadow cast in front of me. That is how I see fear. It is something blocking the source; an effect or result but not causal.
Love gives us fear as a gift in order to survive potentially dangerous situations. In case you hadn’t noticed, life is not all roses here. The trouble arises when our mind begins to dwell in the effect (fear) through our attachments and insecurity. It is a choice that we do not realize we are making. If we were fully aware, we would not make that choice. When fear arises I ask; what is my insecurity here? How have I come to believe that love has left the building and I must suffer? What is my attachment and why? What purpose has it served me and what would happen if I just let it go? Is it a signal from love or is it bullshit?
I have experienced life from both cause and effect and I can report that life is to be lived from the source; Love. Just so I’m not vague about this…
I’m not talking about a bio-chemical reaction in our brain. I’m not speaking about human emotion love (which is typically attachment/insecurity). I am pointing to a peace that is so perfect nothing can touch it. It is a still knowing that is so vast that it encompasses all things. It is presence in the moment. I’m acknowledging our natural state of being and suggesting that we function optimally in this state.
If this is a stretch for you then do your best to remember a moment where you felt perfectly still, at peace, with a slight smile on your face. Go back in memory and find a reference or many references and build on that. Maybe it was when you were five years old? The structure of our mind is associative and built by references. We can reprogram the mind by removing old references and implanting new ones. It is work but it is worthwhile and it is no secret.
This post is affirmation of my commitment to allow our source to flow through me unhindered or die trying.
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When asked; why did God flood the Earth in Genesis? The typical answer I receive is that man’s actions were distasteful and that people were becoming seekers of self. This was occurring but there was something bigger than that going on. It is the correct answer that no one seems to want to address other than conspiracy theorists or new-agers.
The Nephilim are mentioned in the bible as the “sons of God” who saw that the daughters of men were fair – Genesis 6:4. What we typically don’t like to talk about is that the bible says that beings from outside of Earth came to Earth in order to mate with the ‘daughters of men’ and created a hybrid race. Numbers 13:33 in the bible later refers to ‘giants who inhabited the Earth’.
Why not acknowledge this?
How did we become so fearful of truth? If we are seekers of truth then we must be open to anything that might smash belief. Beliefs are made up of patterns of ideas woven together to protect us from the dreaded ‘not knowing’. It is easier to just believe and not have to account for truth. I still have beliefs that I’m letting go of.
My aim is truth and this has required a huge leap of faith. My beliefs have let me down many times because they are not really real. They are survival mechanisms and comfort zones. I challenge you to get beyond belief and see what’s really there. This has only affirmed my faith in a God that I cannot see.
Does it matter if we accept the fact that the Nephilim were beings from outside of our planet/from the stars? It should because the bible also says the end times will be ‘like the days of Noah’ and I suspect that we are going to see some crazy shit happen. A strict adherence to our precious beliefs will only increase our fear and irrationality. And fear and irrationality are the worst emotions to act from in times of crisis or change.
At very least I hope this post pokes your brain a bit:)
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You cannot catch your dreams if you are afraid to go for it.
And if you are going to go for it then you better give it your all regardless of any perceive obstacles.
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Fear is the biggest lie. The truth is that we have nothing to fear when we trust or have faith. Shitty things may still happen but this is when we learn and grow. The point is to overcome and keep overcoming. Besides, what is the worst that could happen? You die? So what? That’s life and I assure you that you will grow from that experience too.
There are many lies in this world that keep us from living our full potential or a completely joyous life. Scarcity is one. We are tricked into beLIEving that there isn’t enough to go around so we climb all over each other for scraps of shit. All the while we are kings and queens. ”I can’t” is another lie and typically translates as “I won’t” which is carefully protected by a pile of defensive excuses. Congratulations!!! You get to live in the mindset of your choice.
Part of the biggest lie; fear, is that we’ve become a permission based entity. We don’t move unless the big authority says to and we wait for permission to speak, think or act. How many opportunities will we allow ourselves to miss out on because we are fearful? This is our conditioning and psychosis.
What are we really afraid of? Things won’t work out? We’ll be criticized? We’ll get hurt or punished? Death? The future?
For starters, the future does NOT exist!!! You are absolutely not afraid of the future. It’s a ghost. What you fear is a projection based on your past experiences. That’s it. I know it seems real but we truly swim in an infinite ocean of love, abundance, grace and experience. We are rich beyond our wildest dreams. Do we know this without doubt? That is the trillion-dollar question.
Often we think of a lie as an act. ”He or she lied to me”. Not really. We build the patterns of our experience based on the story we perpetually tell ourselves. This is not the type of lie that I’m talking about. I’m pointing out the biggest lie. Fear. It is a shadow of love and it has become like an invisible cloak that we do not even realize we are wearing. The spell is starting to wear off. The effects of a poison apple can only last for so long. Stop pushing snooze and wake up.
If you want to dance or sing or go to school or quit your job or learn french or travel the world or help people or love more or speak up at a company meeting about your awesome idea…
Then I officially give you permission to do so.
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If we lose a car, there is an opportunity for a new, better car or to save money by walking.
If our house burns down, there is a chance to build a new life.
If we lose our job the potential for growth awaits as we take a new direction toward our true vocation and purpose.
If someone should die, there is a moment to reflect on our own life and make any necessary adjustments to become more loving and kind. We only have this moment. Life is a precious gift.
If we part ways we have an opportunity to go knowing that we assisted each other in growth, have many cherished memories and are complete within ourselves. New experiences are just around the corner.
If we should die, let’s die knowing that ours was and is an example of a life well lived. Let’s leave with a smile, knowing that the world is a better place for the gifts we gave with our heart.
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1. Sometimes I declare that I am only going to drink a half of bottle of wine.
2. Sometimes my definition of a half of bottle of wine changes half-way through the bottle of wine.
3. I was considering starting a blog called “the theory of penis envy” and marketing it strictly to women. But really, it would only be to receive email notices that read “Jo-anne subscribed to the theory of penis envy”.
4. My dad was a doctor. Dr. Scholl. I did at one point consider following in his shoes but the only reason for this would be so that I would be called “Dr. Scholl”. Subsequently, people call me this anyway and why would I invest 8 years of my life on that endeavor when I can just pay vital statistics $120 for the legal name change?
5. Reality is a very ancient being from the future residing in the present moment.
6. Anything can only become the potential of what it always was.
7. If your goal is to attain the speed of light then stand still. Be patient for light to catch up to you. Otherwise, you are just abandoning the present moment in order to chase the impossible. How can you catch up to what you fundamentally are?
8. Life is a continuum of choice and consequence so yield to the idiots because they might be you.
9. Whenever someone tells me that they are expecting a baby I say “congratulations” but I secretly think, “well someone had sex at least once in the last few months”.
10. I sometimes type LOL even when I’m not actually laughing out loud.
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The bridge between transgression and freedom is wrought with confession, love and forgiveness. It is that simple but not always easy to cross. We are experimential beings that will learn from whatever side we choose to be on and no other human can judge us. Sure they’ll try but who cares because judgement is not an act they’d commit if they were free.
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I thought I was having a nightmare while sleeping in Heaven.
And then I woke up laughing.
Maybe I am just a brain in a vat being prodded by some mad scientist. Nah, that’s just me. Wait, who is talking? Where am I? How did the door I just walked through lead me to the same room I just left?
And then I woke up laughing.
Maybe I am just a brain in a vat being probed by some mad scientist. Nah, that’s just me. Wait, who is talking? Where am I? How did the door I just walked through lead me to the same room I just left?
And then I woke up laughing.
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Love can be risk.
Essentially, what is asked of us is faith. In this, love is not risk. Love is the only way there is. I write about this, yes. The actuality of this message is so much more than words. It is the real work. I still stumble. I still fall. I still make a fool of myself by pretending I’m wise. I pick myself up and forgive. I keep moving forward toward love.
The only reason I believe love can be risk is because of our fear. Fear doesn’t come from love. Love does not cast a shadow lest something be in its way. Most of us have grown up in situations where other human beings (parents, teachers, authorities) have given poor or lack-luster examples of love. A lot of what we learn in the world is conditional love. We learn by conditioning. I love you if. That is fear and it is up to all of us what we do with that information.
I write about this and I hope it doesn’t come across like I have it all figured out because I don’t. I do know that love is the way. I’m still learning though and will continue to do so. The re-wiring process takes some time so be patient if you are on this journey. I think that we give up on our ideals too soon in life because of a few shitty circumstances or events.
If you are feeling like a big pile of crap today because you believe that you’ve failed in love or made big mistakes; stop. Take a deep breath and remind yourself that you and everyone else on Earth is in the same boat. The point is to keep moving forward.
I don’t believe that the world actually wants us to succeed at real love because then the world would have to change.
Seriously though, fuck what the world thinks.
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