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Oppositional Defiance Disorder

The best way to ensure that I will do or attempt to do something is to tell me not to…

“They” call it oppositional defiance disorder, but who are they?  Why do they get to call the shots?  I mean, if you put up things to climb on, kids that love climbing on things like monkeys will do so regardless of your attempts to protect yourself from an insurance perspective.  Why can’t I climb or hang on the goals?  I might fall?  Or is it because some kid climbed on them, as kids do, and fell, breaking his arm and then some over-protective idiot parent took time out of their busy schedule of watching soap operas to contact the city forcing them to put up a sign.

I never had this kind of ridiculous fear surrounding me when I was a kid.  Climbing on things was expected.  Remember the kid that once was you?  Next time you see something climbable….

Climb it.

If you fall, get up and climb something else.


The Temple and The Prison

The body is a temple.

The body is a prison.

This is a huge paradox.

It can express joy or happiness.  It can also feel pain and turmoil.  Pleasure can be a trap.  Pain can be a snare.  Both pleasure and pain have the potential to free the consciousness that drives the vehicle to the degree that the consciousness is willing to let go.  There are many writings on this throughout history so I’m not necessarily going to add some groundbreaking insight here.  All I can do is report my experience.

Temple or prison?  The body is a temple.  The moment that we desire to escape it, it becomes a prison.  ”We” or “I”, that which drives the vehicle chooses one or the other.  A lot of beings on Earth identify with the body and worldly choices.  I am a body.  I am a doctor.  I am a drummer.  I am these emotions.

I am.

Here in the ‘amness’, we get to choose.  We cannot avoid pain all of the time.  That is not our choice necessarily because, as the saying goes:  Shit happens.  We can however choose our response to events, phenomena and the ever so technical ‘shit happening’.  We can choose our perception.  There is a reason that God didn’t give us pleasure buttons and that’s because we’d become catatonic button pushers.

It is a scientific fact that energy cannot be created or destroyed.  Matter can be created and destroyed, built or broken.  Our body is matter.  Fact.  That which resides in the body is not.  One way that I could see a body as a vehicle for freedom is if the consciousness residing in it could make the body dissolve and re appear at will.  Who has time these days to figure that shit out?

In the meantime, this vehicle we call a body is decaying and heading toward the inevitable.  Fearing that fact is useless.  All the herbs, remedies and strict lifestyle choices in the world will not prevent the inevitable.  Just ask Steve Jobs.  Yet, I type this on a Mac computer.

Acceptance is everything.

At times, I admit that my body feels like a prison but that is because I remember where I came from and know what this material world is.  Most times, I awake with and honor this temple that I am currently occupying.  I get to type words with it and move it about.  How cool is that?  One day my body and I will part ways but I will go on.  Then I will be free.

The best prison would be temples because they’re enticing and the trick of slavery is to not let them know that they are slaves.

Yes the body is a temple and a prison.  It is bound by time…

I am not.


Worry

I was afraid of a lot of things that never happened.

Worry is good for a few things I suppose:  Creating physical stress in the body, shitting our pants on the bus by accident or making ourself feel like we have some sort of magic power over uncontrollable circumstances.

Worry is fear.

Worry accomplishes nothing but can make us feel like some sort of progress is happening.  It is a form of negative prayer and can actually impact a situation in an undesirable way.  The field is neutral and we can charge it with any kind of electricity that we choose.

What if, the world was exactly the way it was supposed to be and that everything was running smoothly?  What if, this was true despite chaos, corruption and strife?

Could you accept this?  Why not?

Would you rather have worry or peace?

Choosing peace is a big responsibility.  We have to be diligent.  It means that we do everything that we can to accept the world, make it a better place and help ease each others burdens.  After that comes one of my favorite sayings:  Let go and let God.

Ask yourself this:  What has worrying ever accomplished in my life?  The answer is simple and astounding.

For the record, I hope no one intentionally shits their pants on the bus.


New life

Freedom woke up in the hospital.  Miraculously, she suffered no damage.  The doctors said that she must have been completely relaxed at the time of the accident.  Although she was free, the doctors said they wanted to keep her in care three days for observations.

Freedom’s parents, Love and Joy arrived at the hospital an hour after she awoke.  Together they laughed and shared many moments in appreciation for what they have.  Life, and new life.  When Love and Joy heard the news they were calm.  They knew that it wasn’t their daughters time to die.

“Freedom was always a quiet child” said Love.  ”She was just content to play on her own.  Sure she’d often invite others to play, but they never seemed to be interested in what she had to offer.  She never complained.  Instead, she’d sing and dance.  Freedom takes after her mother that way”.

When asked about Hope and Despair, Joy answered.  ”We never knew them or their family, but our hearts go out to them at this time”.

After the three days in the hospital, Love and Joy thanked the staff for their attentiveness and embraced their daughter.  Freedom smiled and expressed her gratitude for them.

The Sun was setting and the clouds looked like they were shimmering with gold.

 


The Twins

There are two black holes in the mind.

They are twins.

One is named Hope and the other is Despair.  They created each other from a broken mirror and yet their parents are fear and desire.  Hope and Despair used to play together when they were kids.  Now they don’t see eye to eye.

Hope would always tried to console Despair and for a moment they’d laugh.  Then as sure as day, something would happen to Hope and Despair would take control again.  He always wanted control.  He felt he knew better.

Throughout all of their history together, neither of them would reconcile.  It became a perpetual power struggle.  Hope would try to subdue Despair.  Even if that meant lying about reality and pretending everything was great.  Despair was always a realist.  Some would even say he was a cynic as he would often point to evidence of what didn’t work.  It was like he would just bring up past failures.  This made Hope sad.  All this was just negative experience belonging to the past.

To their very last days they fought each other without realizing who their parents were.  Sure, they were siblings but that did not mean anything to either of them.  After all, Hope and Despair were different.  Surely, they weren’t related.  Hope always thought she was better than Despair.  Despair just thought his sister’s head was in the clouds.

One night, on their way home from a political rally they began to fight.  Despair was driving as they swerved into on-coming traffic.

They both died instantly after a head on collision with Freedom.

Freedom is feeling well and resting as we speak.

 


Humility

I asked what was in the way of my feeling peace, joy, love or success in my life and the answer was surprising…

“Nothing”, echoed the walls of my conscious mind.

So why was I not feeling peace or successful?  The answer to this question transformed my thinking…

“You’re not humble enough to realize that it is your own ideas, lies, limits and false systems of belief that get in your way every time.  You would rather hold on to those devils that you know because without them, what are you?  You think that the knowledge that you have built up for all these years is infallible and somehow makes you better than others or sets you free.  Yet, this is the very thing that enslaves you to limits.  Until you let go of thinking that you know what is best and all attempts to force reality to bend to your human will, you will have no lasting peace”.

I was in no position to argue with this inner voice.  I decided that peace and joy was more important than my current anxiety riddled way of thinking and acting.  Life will continue to have challenges or stresses but we do not have to go about this with stress or anxiety.  There is a natural zen to life if we allow it to lead and make this a priority.  I call this listening to God.  You may call it something different but if your ‘different’ isn’t bringing you to that place of confident peace and joy then does it really matter what we call it?

It still amazes me how we struggle, fight and try and try and try and try to prove ourself or our ideas in a world that could give two shits.  Such a limiting identity this is.  I did it for years and I’m in forgiveness mode now.  It is very challenging for us to even admit that our own ignorance or arrogance might be standing in our way.

Truly I say to you, nothing else is.


Freedom

Finally!!!

Freedom comes in cans.

It’s too bad this version tastes so bad.

There is however another way of looking at this:  Freedom does come in ‘cans’.  You will never accept or achieve freedom with ‘can’ts’.  My suggestion is to always drink it up because real freedom tastes fantastic.


Transgression & Freedom

The bridge between transgression and freedom is wrought with confession, love and forgiveness.  It is that simple but not always easy to cross.  We are experimential beings that will learn from whatever side we choose to be on and no other human can judge us.  Sure they’ll try but who cares because judgement is not an act they’d commit if they were free.


Hurt

Some people say that they wouldn’t go back and change anything because it made them who they are today.  I would.  I would go back and change the choices I made that hurt other people.  Those didn’t make me who I am today.  Those leave me filled with remorse and they reduce the other.  I wouldn’t change it in order to rid myself of remorse.  I would change it to rid the other of the hurt.  I realize that some times we have to make decisions for our own health, safety or sanity that others will be affected by but I am not talking about that.  I now believe that most emotional hurt comes from either our own fear and attachment to specific circumstances or selfishness.  Either way, fear is present.  

I have felt hurt and I have caused hurt.  Every single time this has happened it was because I or the other were acting in a selfish manner.  We have all done this and this is why forgiveness is so important.  Fucking hard.  Sometimes almost impossible but nevertheless important.  Forgiveness is freedom.  Blame will consume us.   

But what do I know?  Perhaps all of it happens for a reason.  All I know is this:  I desire to love as much as possible because my eyes have been opened to something real.  My struggle is that my past selfishness and fear continually bite at my heals.  I have to be so diligent to pull these weeds.  Otherwise all of my words are empty.


Life as a business

Until we let go of the business model for life, we will continue our descent into microchipped slavery.  I don’t view life as a business.  The world?  Yes.  Life? No.  The trouble is when we mistake the world for life.  I’m the first to remind people of the fact that there is no ‘real world’ when they say “oh yeah, welcome to the real world”. 

The world is a giant corporation that most people don’t see.  We are kept busy with company X or company Y but, we would be wise to recognize that the world is run as a business.  There is a board of directors.  I’m not about to get into conspiracy theory but the fact is that there are about 2000 people as part of 13 families that control the decisions.  Bloodlines.   

The rest of us are seen as chattle (capital or cattle).  On lower levels of this business are employers and employees.  Regardless, the word employ comes from French meaning “to use”.

One thing that we aren’t told is that we are shareholders in this corporation.  If we are not operating as a shareholder, then we are an employee.  It’s that simple.  How to show up to the corporation as a shareholder would take up a book (which, by the way, I’m almost finished writing)!!! 

The sad part is that when we see the world as a business, our focus turns to profitability and capitalization.  We neglect the simple emotional rewards and tend to forget the talents that were innately given to us.  How can we turn it all around?  I don’t think we can.  It is an individual choice and not a government mandate or collective movement.  The choice of freedom over security is a difficult one but it is worthwhile considering.  Keep in mind that when I say freedom I am not talking about doing whatever you want whenever you want.  That is irresponsible.  Freedom has to be balanced with responsibility.

The world rewards those who step on others to get to the top of the pyramid.  The truth is that you won’t get to the top.  You will at best get to CEO of company X or Y.  The top is reserved for bloodlines who do not give a fuck about us. 

Do you know that it is easier to receive funding for an import/export business that employs 8 year old Chinese kids than it is to receive funding to build a new local community club?  Such is the business model for the world.   

Tomorrows post will be about the non-profit business model.  Remember, every thing that we experience (including money) is just an idea.  My advice today (besides not taking advice from bloggers) is to get outside, look at the clouds or sky, give thanks for your breath and go for a walk by the river.  This is the real world.


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