I asked what was in the way of my feeling peace, joy, love or success in my life and the answer was surprising…
“Nothing”, echoed the walls of my conscious mind.
So why was I not feeling peace or successful? The answer to this question transformed my thinking…
“You’re not humble enough to realize that it is your own ideas, lies, limits and false systems of belief that get in your way every time. You would rather hold on to those devils that you know because without them, what are you? You think that the knowledge that you have built up for all these years is infallible and somehow makes you better than others or sets you free. Yet, this is the very thing that enslaves you to limits. Until you let go of thinking that you know what is best and all attempts to force reality to bend to your human will, you will have no lasting peace”.
I was in no position to argue with this inner voice. I decided that peace and joy was more important than my current anxiety riddled way of thinking and acting. Life will continue to have challenges or stresses but we do not have to go about this with stress or anxiety. There is a natural zen to life if we allow it to lead and make this a priority. I call this listening to God. You may call it something different but if your ‘different’ isn’t bringing you to that place of confident peace and joy then does it really matter what we call it?
It still amazes me how we struggle, fight and try and try and try and try to prove ourself or our ideas in a world that could give two shits. Such a limiting identity this is. I did it for years and I’m in forgiveness mode now. It is very challenging for us to even admit that our own ignorance or arrogance might be standing in our way.
Truly I say to you, nothing else is.