This is post 365 which means that I have successfully completed the post a day for a year challenge.
This year has been transformational to say the least. It has been a year of getting myself back. I won’t get into all of the details but my life was basically turned upside down for a while. It was necessary though. For years I had been struggling with an issue that I wasn’t enough. I was somehow lacking as a human and had to prove my self to the world. I cared so much about what everyone else thought that this became my identity. I wasn’t happy. Change needed to happen.
Over the past year, I have let go of a lot. That psychological nonsense still tries to creep in but I’ve hired guards. In letting go of everything, the irony is that I gained so much more than I let go of. One of the traits that I required to succeed was discipline. My dad often spoke about a bunch of ideas that he never did anything with, so I was determined to make something, anything happen. I started this blog. Honestly, it probably would have just become another fucking project that I start and don’t finish if it wasn’t for the challenge that I imposed upon myself. This has been a lesson in discipline, self-control, creativity and finishing. Remember this: The point of starting anything, is to finish. Otherwise don’t. You will end up drowning in incomplete projects that inevitably leave you with the sense that it is YOU who is not complete.
I almost gave up twice. That is it. One was out of pure laziness and the other was because I was struggling with being on Earth, so the whole blog thing didn’t seem that important. Regardless, I persisted. You can actually read the points in my life last year where I was struggling with myself or some circumstance. This blog has been like a reflecting pond for me that others get to gaze into and post comments on or ‘like’.
Many people have been so supportive during this time. In no particular order:
Reid: It was you who inspired me to do this. I believe you called it blog therapy. Indeed it proved positive. Your friendship means the world to me. We are spiritual allies and we both found our audience.
Megan: Your constant encouragement has reminded me of something so important. Love, above all else is what matters and without honest communication we are all lost. Thank you. Life without you would seem pointless.
Dave: My brain functions better while interacting with your brain. You have shown me what discipline is and have offered a shining example of what it takes to step up as a man and a father. Oscar is one lucky kid.
Mom: You are the reason that I love so much. Thank for everything (including putting up with my shit and me posting about your shit). Unconditional love is my inheritance. You showed me that love is not something to be earned. Love is a gift.
Something very cool happened this year that I wasn’t really expecting. To date I have 74 subscribers and average over 100 hits per day. That may not be a big deal in the larger scheme of things but it means a lot to me. I now have ‘virtual’ friends in India, England, the States, Europe and the Philippines. I sincerely appreciate every one of you. Your comments, emails and encouragement reminds me that there are many of us all over the world that see through the pop media’s perpetual death chant and get what life is about.
Love. Perspective. Communication. Experience. Laughter.
I will continue to write. It is just that the self induced pressure is off now.
Thank you for accompanying me on this journey!